I have created a personal blog for myself at another link. I will still post here whenever I can as I will be spending most of my time doing the personal blog. If you want to invite you to my blog , please tell me your email but I will still have to decide if I should let you see my personal one .
Today is MrsSpongebob birthday and I would like to wish her a happy birthday and hope that what you wish for may come true and forever be happy but I did not prepare any present for her yet :x
Oh my god, Jerz said that she saw me yesterday at the heeren . I was like standing so close to them if cannot see sure got problem. LOLs, just joking :P
I think I need to hide myself already. She wanted to say hi but I walked away already because there was a uncle that blocked her way.
Notebook say I never greet him or say hi. Notebook arhs, if I were to greet the wrong person then I will be very paiseh lehs. I saw yoyohihi but he did not see me :P
So sad that Jerz and Situ did not make it for the next round. *sobs* If next year Jerz and Situ join again, must support them again. :D
I did actually voted for the both of them. The judges have 70% while audiences have 30% of voting rights.
I do not know if I should try for next year teenage icon 2009 if have ? I have not decided yet but most probably I will want to try it to gain confidence.

That is all for now~~
Ok, back with a post for today.
What I did toady was that I went to Orchard Road. I left the house at 2.30pm and reached the hereen at 4 pm cause I was waiting for the bus at my place which took so long to arrive.
Once I reached there, I went up to the 4th floor but on the way saw Daniel & gang who where there to spot the Criteria as Daniel turn is tomorrow LOLS. I missed Jerz singing as she was the first few contestants to sing while Situ had A26 so I stayed back to wait for him to sing his piece. After situ sang his song, I left the place to buy mint ice-cream and walked to the bus-stop to wait for bus number 65 to arrived. As the first bus arrived, it was so packed till I had to wait for the next bus which was not full of people at all.
Reached tampines interchange at 8+ pm and went to buy macdonalds as my dinner and then took bus home.
End of post ~~
Today, I received something from teenage :P
It is actually a CD which I won by taking part in the website.
But the package is very weird. Even though is a CD, they sent like as if there was a big package. being sent to me. It is very exaggerating.
The CD details as follows :
Band Name - One Night Only
Album - Started A Fire

There are 10 songs in the CD and the titles are

• Just For Tonight
• It's About Time
• You And Me
  
• He's There
• Start Over
  
• Time
• Stay At Home
• It's Alright
• Sweet Sugar
• Hide

Next, Habbo had a makeover today with free battleball and snowstorm from now on whichh I think will attract more people to play cause it is interesting and fun. Habbo really trying to attract more people to join habbo.

I want to stop here for now.
Goodbye.

You Are 52% Emo

You're not emo, but you're plenty thoughtful, unique, and even a little angsty.

I would like to present someone with a award and the post is made for her.
This award is for someone who always made me felt loved in habbo hotel :D

The award is : The Most Loved In Habbo
Going out to MrsSpongebob . Yay !!

MrsSpongebob, you deserve this award <3
I am totally going crazy already. I cannot control my total emotion and gets agitated easily over a small matter. I every night would cry on my bed bitterly without anyone noticing me. You may say that I might be too emotional but it is true.I am on the verge of breaking down.My mind still does give me headaches and the painful memories which I have intended to forget has not totally left my brain yet.It is totally diffcult to put down something and move on if the thing still stay inside my head.
I better go and have a rest before my brain is about to explode.
Replies to tagg first

ROXY:
Lols, i just happened to chance upon yr blog , HAHAS. Words of wisdom ? *CHOKES* x) TAKECARE !
Reply: o.O , do not choke please. I do not want to send you to the hospital.

Backs to posting :

I finally realised that no one could be really trusted in my life. What does friends mean really ? Is it when they need you they will ask you to do for them and you just do it ? Or is it when they do not need you they will kick you aside like a football and hurt your feelings deeply ?
I felt totally hurt and have no courage to really move on foward in life. All the people in my life have hurt me deeply that no one really knows as I have not told anyone. I been really trying to forget the past but it is always haunting me at night. I also cried and had terrible headaches cause of it and nothing could be done. Who can I really trust in my life ???
One more thing, habbosoup is finally back up and running.
Now back today to post and blog.
Replies to taggies :

Double-ii`jerlene :
WHEEEEEEE~! hihi! Just bored. Just giving you a random tag! ;D
Reply : Hi, tagged you back at your blog already.

xuelin ; mrs spongebob :
hey babe! uu giv me award , than i will giv uu :] giv me the most friendly de hor!
Reply : I can give you a award but I must think of an award to give you :D

jiaen :
rotten-fish here. shall tag you with jiaen in the future ;D Im tagging you again anw! Cheer up no matter what. In life you've gotta pick urself up and move on. All the way! XD
Reply : Okay, thanks for the encouragement.

XUELIN :
COS HE NOT FRIENDLY LIKE ME MAHHN ;] TAGHGG ME MORE BABE!
Reply : Wah, you mean yoyohihi super evil is it ?

MrSpongeBob :
relink my name as Joshua thanks
Reply : Relinked you my friend

Whitestars293 :
LOL! No luhs. hahaha! it's what people call maomao. ;X
Reply : o.O Next time call him meiyoumao arhs ?

xiaogirl :
you should know who i am right ?
Reply : YES !

ROXY :
Hays LaylaBloom (: Well, don't feel down okay, there's always a way to get things sorted out. Everyone has their ups and downs, so do takecare kaykay ? Live life at it's fullest :D
Reply : Roxy, where did you come from ?? Did you come from someone's blog ? *giggles* Thanks for comming down to my blog and saying words of wisdom :D

Since I have finished my tags, I shall continue to my post.
As I have been busy doing somethings, I did not even find time to post here on my blog. You may ask what I have been doing these days as I played habbo and wolfteam.
I am back to playing wolfteam as it is a nice game. By the way, teenage magazine is out already so do remember to get a copy of the latest magazine.

I shall end here .
Now is time for me to reply those tags .

xiaogirl : I am sure there's a listening ear , friend or what ? Once , I ever wanted to do silly stuffs like you .
Take your time , time heals the wound.
I am in same shoes as you , so I understand how you feel , my friend , don't worry, i know its difficult , take one step at a time
Remember there's a idiom, there is always light at the end of the tunnel, keep on walking and you will find light , GOD BLESSED YOU
No matter how narrow the journey is , life still move on
I am facing this problem as you do , you are not the only one.

Reply : I now trust no one as my friend as they had betrayed my trust once and I never wanted to be hurt by anyone or anybody again. You may say that I am selfish but my mind is the one which is driving me crazy and it is totally messed up.

Whitestars293 : Hello LaylaBloom. Lalala~ Meiyoumao... LOL! ;XX

Reply : o.O White , did you pull all of maomao hair ??? Later he poor thing :x

XUELIN : SRY AR , I KINDA MIA from habbo awhile L:X

Reply : Wah, MIA from habbo :( Come back soon to habbo

That concludes the replying of the tags.
I freaking totally hate my life. I cannot wait to end my painful and hurting life. Even though I may seem like having a good life, but I am actually suffering in slience as I do not want to speak out as I myself trust no one. I treated you like a friend but you bully me and touched me. Pain and sufferings were only left inside of me. Do you even know that ??????
You people will just ask me to let go but if you were in my shoes, what will you feel ? I know it will never easy to let things go that simple and lead back a normal life. My mind is in a whirl and very lost. I am trying to find the courage to get back up but I feel like it is not with me right now.

I have nothing to say as I am feeling very vexed ~~
Signing off ~~

Labels: vexed

Hi people, I am back to blog as last few days I was not feeling very well. I am having a very terrible headache and had nothing to write so decided not to blog.

Well, replies to tag first...

redhia: Ellos, just passing by yeah ;D Random blog since i'm bored so just tag ;D
Reply : Hellos. Did you get here by sweetielin95 blog ??


jiaen: aka Rotten-fish. Hello! xD
Reply : Hello XD. You finally relinked my blog I guess ?

Okay, tags replied for now.
Back to my post....

I feel like my brain is about to explode and the thing keep on flowing back. What can I do to stop it ? Even though I left it behind, it came back to my brain and makes me remind of it happening. The thing u left behind is only the stains which is difficult to wash off.
Been doing nothing these days other than going online to play online games like going to habbo hotel and chat with them.Other than that, I have been resting a lot as I said I was not feeling well so I needed rest.

There is nothing else I want to post already.
How many percent Emotional are you ??? ( Took from friendster)
(1)
[]I like Black
[]I like White
[x]I like Red
[x]I like Blue
[]I like Orange
Total: 2

[]Cut yourself using a penknife
[x]Felt like dying
[]Went home as late as 11pm.
[x]Attempted suicide.
[x ]Took someone as a punching bag
Total: 3

[ ]Wore Black Eyeliner to school.
[x]Pretended that nothing has happened
in life.
[ ]Wore full black out to mall
[x]Rebellious to your parents
[x]Hated everyone in life.
Total: 3

[x]Cried for your loved ones.
[x]Broke someone's heart.
[x]Made someone cried.
[ ]Made sacrifices to the girl/guy you
loved.
[x]Been unreasonable before.
Total: 4

[ ]Ate sleeping pills so you can't
wake up forever.
[ ]Have more than 10 black shirts.
[ ]Edited your own photo till it's
very emo.
[x]Hated someone because that someone
hates you too.
[ ]Have alot of enemy because their
jealous that you are emo.
Total: 1

> Total up everything and times 4.(:
13 x 4 = 52 % xDD yay !!!

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Labels: emotional

Now is 12.09 am and I cannot seem to sleep now and pretty bored to death.
People who visit my blog, please leave a tag as my tag board seems quite dead already.
I need to find something to kill my boredom by playing online games or listening to songs which I have on my laptop.
Nothing to post so it will end here :D

Labels: Tag

Back to blogging today.
As you can see in my earlier post, I found the lyrics for the song "Wo You Zui" by Kenji Wu.
Actually did not want to post at all cause nothing to post at all. Just now one of my friend and I was chatting on MSN about some things which will not be disclosed here on my blog.
Did my blogging now and playing habbo as well cause boring and nothing to do and finding some songs on imeem for my blog now.
Today will be a short post cause nothing to talk about so see ya !!
Title : Wo You Zui
Artist : Kenji Wu Ke Qun

Wo Zhi Dao Wo You Zui
我知道我有罪
Jiang De Zui
讲的罪
Wo Tai Zi Yi Wei
我太自以为
Wo Zhi Dao Wo You Cuo
我知道我有错
Jiang De Cuo
讲的错
Tan Xin You Yan Jiu
贪新又厌旧
Shuo Hua Da Sheng Shi Wo Jiu Shi Wo
说话大声是我就是我
Cuo Que Bu Hao Suo
错却不好说
Nian Hua Re Cao Shi Wo You Shi Wo
拈花惹草是我又是我
Zui Rang Ni Cheng Shou
罪让你承受
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
Shuo Hua Bie Da Sheng
说话别大声
Wo Cuo Wo Cheng Ren
我错我承认
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
Yue Chang Yue Da Sheng
越唱越大声
Wo Ai Wo Cheng Ren
我爱我承认
Chang Dao Wo Sheng Si Li Jie
唱到我声嘶力竭
Na You Ru He
那又如何
Ni Zhi De Geng Hao De Nan Ren
你值得更好的男人
Wo Zhi Dao Wo You Zui
我知道我有罪
Jiang De Zui
讲的罪
Zhi Chu Yi Zhang Zui
只出一张嘴
Wo Zhi Dao Wo You Cuo
我知道我有错
Jiang De Cuo
讲的错
Huai Peng You Tai Duo
坏朋友太多
Rang ni Shang Xin Shi Wo Jiu Shi Wo
让你伤心是我就是我
Cuo Que bu Hao Shuo
错却不好说
Pi Zi Wu Lai Shi Wo You Shi Wo
痞子无赖是我又是我
Zui Rang Ni Cheng Shou
罪让你承受
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
Shuo Hua Bie Da Sheng
说话别大声
Wo Cuo Wo Cheng Ren
我错我承认
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
Yue Chang Yue Da Sheng
越唱越大声
Wo Ai Wo Cheng Ren
我爱我承认
Chang Dao Wo Sheng Si Li Jie
唱到我声嘶力竭
Na you Ru He
那又如何
Ni Zhi De Geng Hao De Nan Ren
你值得更好的男人
Rang Wo Zhe Zui Ren
让我这罪人
Rang Dao Xin Hui Yi Leng
让到心灰意冷
Tong Ku Ni Han Bu Chu Sheng
痛苦你喊不出声
Ni Bei Yi Zhuan Shen
你背已转身
Wo Kan Dao Ni Shang Hen
我看到你伤痕
Cai Zhi Dao Wo Cuo
才知道我错
Wo You Duo Me Can Ren
我有多么残忍
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
Shuo Hua Bie Da Sheng
说话别大声
Wo Cuo Wo Cheng Ren
我错我承认
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
Yue Chang Yue Da Sheng
越唱越大声
Wo Ai Wo Cheng Ren
我爱我承认
Chang Dao Wo Sheng Si Li Jie
唱到我声嘶力竭
Na You Ru He
那又如何
Ni Zhi De Geng Hao De Nan Ren
你值得更好的男人
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
Zai Ye Bie Da Sheng
再也别大声
Wo Cuo Wo Cheng Ren
我错我承认
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
Quan Shi Jie Shi Sheng
全世界失声
Wo Ai Wo Cheng Ren
我爱我承认
Chang Dao Ni Xin Hui Yi Zhuan
唱到你心回意转
Ting Wo De Ge
听我的歌
Zhe Ci Wo Bi Shui Dou Ren Zhen
这次我比谁都认真
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
Jiu Fa Wo Chang Qing Ge
就罚我唱情歌
I am feeling very weird these days. I just do not know why this is happening to me. I just want to forget it but it keeps coming back as if it is a scar left behind on me which is very painful and hurt. Can I even have my peace ? Every time it flows into my brain, I would just cry and felt helpless and do not even have the strength to carry on in life.What can I even do ? I feel too hopeless to do anything. I feel terrified and scared.
I keep on crying in slience and do want to start life a new but really scared.I am at a loss.
I want to get out and hope it will help a lot.

Shall end my post for today.

Name : Benjamin Tan,
Status : Single
Email :
benjamintanjintat_1992
@hotmail.com
Horoscope : Libra
Child Of God
Spiritual B'day : 13 Sept 2008 Y-Hope (East D2)
16 and going to be 17 on 03 October 2009,
Very Emotional Person !!!




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